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1 year anniversary of brand new eyes

  • A year ago, yesterday, we released our 3rd full length record by the name of, 'brand new eyes'. It was a really important day for us because this was the record that was going to show people that after all the bullshit we'd put ourselves through, we weren't going to go anywhere.

    The tour that we had scheduled was to start on the 29th of September and only be about a month long. It was to kick off this album and get back in front of our very own fans in the states after a long year of overseas travel and a big summer opening up for No Doubt. So we got to Pomona the morning of the 29th and were ready to prove to people that we were back and there was nothing anyone could do about it. Only problem is I didn't have a voice. Like, at all.

    I was convinced that it was all mental - only in my head - and we took the stage that night anyways. But the way it ended left me with a bigger mental battle and serious throat problems. I walked off the stage with 3 songs left to perform and without explaining to the crowd what was going on. My voice had totally shut off and I was barely even able to speak. So after the guys came backstage to find me and figure out what was going on, I was horrified at the idea of going back out to see what Pomona thought about it. Josh assured everyone that it was the right thing to do. He was turning 22 that night. as if the night wasn't already a big enough deal to all of us.

    So the guys walked back on stage, without me. Josh told the crowd that I couldn't sing and that they should sing to me, loud enough that I could hear from where I was sitting. And as they ripped into "Misery Business" and the crowd began to sing my parts, karaoke style.. I sat on the floor, in a corner backstage listening and crying like a dumb little baby.

    There aren't very many moments in my life pertaining to music that I can sit back and let other people do all the work for me. I feel guilty if I'm not working just as hard if not harder than other people. It took everything in me not to run out there and just try and do something that I thought would fix it. But the most humbled I've ever been and the most grateful that I've ever felt, was when I realized there was nothing I could do. Except for just to let our fans - the people who believe in us the most. and the people we believe in - sing. How sweet the sound.

    Thanks to all of our fans. It's been a year and one day. This was a life changing night for all of us and we'll never forget it. We'll keep making memories.

    Hayley

    Follow this on Twitter using the tag #brandneweyes

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on September 30, 2010 - 9:32pm

A year ago, yesterday, we released our 3rd full length record by the name of, 'brand new eyes'. It was a really important day for us because this was the record that was going to show people that after all the bullshit we'd put ourselves through, we weren't going to go anywhere.

The tour that we had scheduled was to start on the 29th of September and only be about a month long. It was to kick off this album and get back in front of our very own fans in the states after a long year of overseas travel and a big summer opening up for No Doubt. So we got to Pomona the morning of the 29th and were ready to prove to people that we were back and there was nothing anyone could do about it. Only problem is I didn't have a voice. Like, at all.

I was convinced that it was all mental - only in my head - and we took the stage that night anyways. But the way it ended left me with a bigger mental battle and serious throat problems. I walked off the stage with 3 songs left to perform and without explaining to the crowd what was going on. My voice had totally shut off and I was barely even able to speak. So after the guys came backstage to find me and figure out what was going on, I was horrified at the idea of going back out to see what Pomona thought about it. Josh assured everyone that it was the right thing to do. He was turning 22 that night. as if the night wasn't already a big enough deal to all of us.

So the guys walked back on stage, without me. Josh told the crowd that I couldn't sing and that they should sing to me, loud enough that I could hear from where I was sitting. And as they ripped into "Misery Business" and the crowd began to sing my parts, karaoke style.. I sat on the floor, in a corner backstage listening and crying like a dumb little baby.

There aren't very many moments in my life pertaining to music that I can sit back and let other people do all the work for me. I feel guilty if I'm not working just as hard if not harder than other people. It took everything in me not to run out there and just try and do something that I thought would fix it. But the most humbled I've ever been and the most grateful that I've ever felt, was when I realized there was nothing I could do. Except for just to let our fans - the people who believe in us the most. and the people we believe in - sing. How sweet the sound.

Thanks to all of our fans. It's been a year and one day. This was a life changing night for all of us and we'll never forget it. We'll keep making memories.

Hayley

Follow this on Twitter using the tag #brandneweyes

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nickochompka's picture

It's what music is about. "Songs are never above or greater than their author or listeners; they simply bring out the best in them."
ParamoreIsABand_3's picture

Yeaaaah ! I bought it the first day it was in France, knowing all the songs the same night... Was great... Singing it in all high school ! Mouahahah. Was great. But dont worry ! I'm still doing it in university :D
Pattyklauck's picture

Dude, I cried. Sometimes, for me, cry is not normal
madileen's picture

ahhhh... that's how much your fans(us) and your bandmates loves you hayley..=)))
lady_cat1019's picture

awwww hayley you are such an inspiration
Reed's picture

i NEarly teared up reading this post!!! I LOVE U GUYS for making me cry at work!!
LilDecoy's picture

Your music is the one thing I look forward to hearing every day, honest to god I can't think about going a day without you. You rock! I'm one of your billions of biggest fans!
Lewlew1989's picture

Album gone platnium in the uk! Gratz you rocked the o2! Best night of my life!
ms.lexbroadway's picture

i guess so cus i just did...and that takes a lot!
April_29's picture

is it possible for a post to make a person cry? best post ever :')
Love_Paramore3's picture

still proud of hayley for performing that night and doing what she had to do when she lost it completly. I love this band soo much and nothing they do will ruin that.
paramorerock_2's picture

hi Hayley to us you will always be awsome!!!!
Rayza Luisa's picture

ooh God, that's one of the many reasons I love Paramore so much! Hayley is so incredible, the whole band is, and, like MegItaly91, I'm proud off being a fan of this perfect band. It doesn't matter the problems they can have, we'll always be there to support them just like in the video, because that's waht real fans do. I'm brazillian and can't wait to see a show here, and I hope this time I'll be able to go. *-* Paramore 4 ever, until the end!
MegItaly91's picture

Well I saw this post a lot of time ago, I think the day she posted it, but after seeing for the hundredth time the video of Misery Business at Pomona I decided I should comment this post... That video makes me cry everytime I see it and this post made and makes me cry as well. I'm proud of Paramore, this beautiful people and musicians that i love so much... I'm proud of all Paramore's fans and I'm also proud of me for beeing one of them... We are the people who believe in Paramore and the people in which Paramore members believe so we have to support them as much as we love them... And I know that we all love them so much... Like the girl and the boy who left the message before me I'm italian and I assure you that we are all waiting for you. And I know that probably nobody will read my comment but I write what i feel: please Paramore come to Italy and do concerts, I'm begging you. Thank you for making such a great music.
HayleyBlue's picture

That's why i love you guys! Those are the things i'll remember forever. I cannot thing of anything just as sweet as this. You are incredible. Just my life. I'm italian,we're waiting for u there.! Come on! Luv ya guys, there's nothing i wouldn't do 4 you and there's anything so strong as my love for you. Keep on. Now, untill the end.
Federico_3's picture

i'm again federico.....sorry for the nglish i wish that you understand my inglish
Federico_3's picture

Hi Hayley i'm federico and i'm a big paramore's fan....Paramore's songs had accompanied a lot of my life's moment and i owe a lot to your songs!!!But one song in particlar had changed my life....The only exception!!!I think that it's an ubelivable song,and it's the sonudtrack of a very important moment of my life!!The first time that i kissed my girlfriend,martina,we had listening thi song and we have decided that the only exception was our love song.....I ask you to post in my girlfriend's facebook profile a little movie in wich you say to her that i love her!!!!it will be great.....i know that it's virtually impossible because you are very busy with the band but al least i try to say it to you!!!!Thank you for everitings....federico P.s my girlfriends name is martina trentani!!!
Fallen Angel_3's picture

you gave me one more reason to prove why i fucking love you so much....x)
whensmileyfarts's picture

hayley it happens..no ones perfect...cause the imperfections are worth it than being perfect:)
I3PARAMORE19's picture

Hayley, I love this story. :) You are such an inspiration to people. You have no idea! I'm an 18 year old girl with some major dreams. I've been wanting to be a singer/songwriter since I was 15. This year I made it in a band for about 1 month, and even though it didn't work out, I needed the experience and I'm grateful for it. I'm gonna keep trying my best and I won't give up on my dreams, because I know you and so many other people in the music didn't. I always tell my sisters, friend, & just anyone....if I make it in a band that's all about the music and the people, I want us to be AT LEAST half as good as you. At least then I know I'll have a shot in the music industry. Hayley, I hope I can go to one of your concerts one day...and hopefully if I make it, I'll meet you and the guys. That would be an awesome day. Keep making great music!! Hayley Williams and Paramore...YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST!!!!!!!!! Later!
ClOnlyexception's picture

Hayley.. you and the guys are awesome! If you guys come out on stage with no voice, not being able to play your music people would still love you 100% for you even standing on that stage and making effort to be there!!! i know i would.. im coming to see you november at o2 arena and can't wait!!! You have so many fans (me being one to.. a pretty huge fan!) and should never give up no matter what! Your music has helped me through some pretty awful times in my life and have pulled me through smiling no matter what! You don't realise the impact you guys have on me as well as others your music is the only reason to rock! you and the boys should never doubt yourselves don't listen to the rumours out on this earth because there are millions of people you inspire and who look up at you! I learned the guitar because of your music and i can never stop listening to it! i cant wait to be on of those screaming fans in november!! :D I love you guys loads stay strong you are all amazing xxx
lolhi's picture

hey hayley dont be too hard on urself:) u did what u could and tried ur best that night:) we fans still love and support ur whole band cos you will always put 100% effort into what ever concerts u do which is highly admirable. u also care about ur fans as well. you were really awesome when u came to singapore and u having so much energy out there, which is what made us one of the "loudest crowds u ever had". if u come to singapore u can count me to be there:D
Yassi's picture

Hey, I already read this about a month ago, and I was sympathizing with you. But then, I decided later to read all your entrys in your journal on this website. I realized how you, Josh, Jeremy, Taylor and Zac were awesome, beautiful, cool, talented, lovely, lovable, important for me and a lot of words that I don't know how to say in English. I just finished to read again this post, and it touched me a lot more than the other day. Thanks you, Paramore, Hayley, Josh, Jeremy, Taylor, Zac, to be just as you are cause.... you saved my life with your songs, you make me wanted to cry with The Only Exception and We Are Broken, and I dream sometimes to go to one of your shows, screaming like a crazy little fan and meet you all. It's literally one of my dreams. Thank you so much, - Yassi
luis_5's picture

my name is luis , your songs are fantastic with your songs I let us fall in love she gives a pretty girl and thank you for written those beautiful songs ,I cannot write English very well but I hope you understand each other
geeissocoollike's picture

awwhhh :'( :') xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
wan's picture

keep on making beautiful music!!!! paramore rocks!!!
ernajoy's picture

hayley your so humble thats why i admire you a lot..just keep it up.. miss you a lot.. hope to see you someday..
dljj2010's picture

Hayley, you're my inspiration for singing and literally my hero. I seen you at the Honda Civic Tour in Hershey, Pennsylvania on August 7th and I can safely say that it was the best night of my life. I will always remember that night for the rest of my life. I even remember what your Twitter said after the show.. "We played Hershey Park tonight, but the smell in the air wasn't chocolate, it was sweaty kids getting awesome!". I was in the second row from the Front and I cannot even explain how awesome I felt. I did want to get on stage to sing with you but my friend Steph who I met at the show got on stage. My mother threw away the sign I had made so I didn't have it:(. I'm rambling on though, I know you probably read comments like this every day and I wish that I would be the comment you could reply to. That night was the best night of my life, and no matter what happens Hayley, we will always be there for you:). You're my hero and I will be in love with you and Paramore forever! Sincerely, -Doug
naz's picture

hayley.. u such a great musican an artist for me.. i will support you forever.. paramore makes my life..
Tayley_4's picture

So amazing. I still read this.

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