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    Posted by
    Hayley
         
    August 18, 2008

    but... i was just thinkin about life. i was thinkin a little about "fame" and "celebrity" (what a great nsync record). this is not about to be some crazy profound thing. you're not going to get smarter nor will i look much smarter to you after reading this post... i'm just saying, i was thinkin... and i wanted to write about it.

    the past year and a half has not been easy or hard. honestly, i can't remember much of it because it went by too fast for me to understand what was actually going on. it still surprises me when i hear one of our songs on the radio or see a picture of us in a magazine. i still don't get why the hell someone would care to have one of our signatures on something of theirs haha. on a daily basis, we are asked, if not by a journalist then by a fan, what it feels like to be famous and yet i still draw a blank every time. because, to me, we are just the same. the only true difference between the life we lived before riot and the life we live now is that every little thing. every. insignificant. thing. that we do is cared for in some way. whether it be concern, obsession, hate, a genuine interest or delight... everyone has their opinion and we hear them all at some point. i really don't mind listening. yes, it can get old. it can be humorous or enraging or just plain sad... nothing changes the fact that there's always someone out there coming up with new theories about us, new ideas so that they can get a grip or put a handle on who we are. i might sound bitter but actually i'm just a little bit fascinated. i still haven't really figured out what it means to be known of but not understood in any way shape or form. i could fill a hundred pages of lyrics, poetry, broken thoughts and still never be understood even the slightest. it's a good thing. i just don't get it yet.

    life has never been so exciting and so wonder-full. the greatest part is not understanding it. not being able to tell what's next. everyone wants what they can't have but when i look back on days i thought i wanted something completely different than all of this - i can see how stupid that was. how selfish i was to ever try putting myself in someone else's story. (neverending stooryyyyy!!! ... sorry).

    to sum up these scattered thoughts i would like to say this: when we think we know people inside out and we think we know what's best for them we should try to remember we don't even know what's best for ourselves.

    love,
    hayley

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Submitted by Hayley
on August 18, 2008 - 11:15am

but... i was just thinkin about life. i was thinkin a little about "fame" and "celebrity" (what a great nsync record). this is not about to be some crazy profound thing. you're not going to get smarter nor will i look much smarter to you after reading this post... i'm just saying, i was thinkin... and i wanted to write about it.

the past year and a half has not been easy or hard. honestly, i can't remember much of it because it went by too fast for me to understand what was actually going on. it still surprises me when i hear one of our songs on the radio or see a picture of us in a magazine. i still don't get why the hell someone would care to have one of our signatures on something of theirs haha. on a daily basis, we are asked, if not by a journalist then by a fan, what it feels like to be famous and yet i still draw a blank every time. because, to me, we are just the same. the only true difference between the life we lived before riot and the life we live now is that every little thing. every. insignificant. thing. that we do is cared for in some way. whether it be concern, obsession, hate, a genuine interest or delight... everyone has their opinion and we hear them all at some point. i really don't mind listening. yes, it can get old. it can be humorous or enraging or just plain sad... nothing changes the fact that there's always someone out there coming up with new theories about us, new ideas so that they can get a grip or put a handle on who we are. i might sound bitter but actually i'm just a little bit fascinated. i still haven't really figured out what it means to be known of but not understood in any way shape or form. i could fill a hundred pages of lyrics, poetry, broken thoughts and still never be understood even the slightest. it's a good thing. i just don't get it yet.

life has never been so exciting and so wonder-full. the greatest part is not understanding it. not being able to tell what's next. everyone wants what they can't have but when i look back on days i thought i wanted something completely different than all of this - i can see how stupid that was. how selfish i was to ever try putting myself in someone else's story. (neverending stooryyyyy!!! ... sorry).

to sum up these scattered thoughts i would like to say this: when we think we know people inside out and we think we know what's best for them we should try to remember we don't even know what's best for ourselves.

love,
hayley

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September 17, 2009 - 6:40pm — jess_97
er huh im lost er i love uuuuuuuuuuuuuu! p.s im lost in feelingsat the mo with pbrty and that shite
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June 2, 2009 - 3:27am — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: GoGreen Hayley,im glad u wrote this,its true i dont know u personally,its true u dont know who the hell i am!But as i read this, i felt something, like a lump on my throat.I did'nt cry but it did got me thinking.Thank u Hayley,ur thought really opened another side of me.I thought i knew what was best for everyone,without knowing what was best for myself.I Would like ur signature if i ever bumped into u!U inspire me, Paramore u are not like other stars,that care about attention or their names on the headlines,ur songs speak to me,i cant stop listening to them!And thats my favorite part of life too,to never understand it, to sit and think about how it all started. to Expect the unexpected.And sometimes when i think about life too hard,it does'nt make sense anymore. I know what i wrote may not make sense,but what Hayley wrote sure did :) come to P.R. im the weird girl in jeans and probably holding my ipod listening ur songs!
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May 26, 2009 - 2:14pm — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: marina i completely agree with "hit it vampqueen". except for your music and your voice, i appreciate you very much for your personality and way of thinking. the fact that you share such thoughts with your fans makes us feel closer to you. you aren't just one of these "stars" who only care about glossy magazine covers and other such things. congrats to you! we love you!!
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April 19, 2009 - 2:29pm — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: diraB i kno im like a year late with this blog, but i stumbled on it while trying to get my fill of paramore before the june 11th showw in durrty jersey. anyways, my comment: "Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own." -The Alchemist. word. maybe reading this has made someone smarter after all. =]
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April 14, 2009 - 1:30pm — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: Piper Haley you are right. I remember wrighting in my diary one day remembering the time that i was at preformance camp. It was three weeks of non-stop rehearsing,fon,dancing,and just i dont know show biz prep. I came in very shy and timid. I was very very very sad and depressed(middle school is hell on earth). I guess i just came out of my shell ,and met some really cool people that i never thought i would ever see. We talked about everthing(including paramore).I came in there afraid to be who i was. But why should i be so? You shouldnt be afraid to live your own life,You shouldnt be afraid to to take a risk. Some times people set down rules for you But who said you had to follow the? You should never be afraid to step out into the spot light,and besides we only live once! I came out of that came out of that camp sure,proud,and strong. My mom always tells me to live every day like it was my last. I was really touched by what you said. Seriously i was.
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March 28, 2009 - 6:49pm — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: pct Well Hayley, you seem to me like a very deep thinker. I think that it is a good thing that you share your thoughts with your fans. it's great for us to get a peek at what thoughts lie beneath such inspirational music and lyrics. I'm sure that a lot of people who read this can relate to what you are saying one way or another. As for the autograph thing, just imagine an artist(s) that you admired growing up (e.g:nsync-lol!). I'm sure that you would've really wanted one of their autographs because you admired them so much. Well, it's the same with us. We admire, respect and are inspired by you and want to have something that recognises that you are real and that we can keep and say that we got a signature off of you, and it is our little personal recognition between us- the fans- and you. Anyway enpugh babbling. Lastly I just want to say that your band has really made me appreciate good music and know my tastes and likes and dislikes much more. Thank you for that, and keep on making your musical inspirations.
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March 26, 2009 - 5:18am — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: Charlie Honestly , You are an amazing person Just an Incredible person I may not know you personally But Wow , you truly are a great inspiration ! And yes , I still want your signature ! If I actually saw you , with my own eyes.. oh wow what an amazing thought , I always say that there is no point admiring some who you don't even know , Well I don't know you are just so inspirational , and one of the few celebrities that don't think that taking drugs or getting into jail is cool ... Your (the band) music is amazing if only I had the chance to see you live , it would be the best night of my life !! please if you have the time can you please come to NEW ZEALAND , I know you'll love it , well everyone does.. I know you'll like it .. please just if you can get around to it , if you have some spare time on your hands why not come to New Zealand . I know Lots of people will come , you are SO big here ! Well in my life anyway ! :) The way you've worked your way to the top is incredible , I wish I could be like that when I get older .. I'm only 13 ,and you are my hero . My friend is going to dye her hair like yours to be more like you , but I think that you should have more your own style and that's your trademark so it sort of takes your idea . I want to be like you in the way that you are a great person and that you've worked to become a great band but not to look physically like you exactly .. I'd like to know what you think about it .. I think I'm going to post this comment on e=every thing else on this site , just in case you don't check this.. :) Call it an obsession , but you guys are fully awesome , Dude I love this band . I love Paramore ! PS. Sorry for my droning on :P Char. x
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March 19, 2009 - 4:38pm — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: Lucas Paul "when we think we know people inside out and we think we know what’s best for them we should try to remember we don’t even know what’s best for ourselves." "who watches the watchmen?" i feel like those two quotes are reaaaal similar to each other. i read watchmen last semester for my english class, and had to analyze the hell out of it. don't know why i'm leaving a comment about it... just felt like putting the thought out there, even knowing it probably won't be read. hm. -LP
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February 23, 2009 - 8:34pm — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: Megan Guapa i totally agree, you seem so clear headed, i really admire you Hayley.
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February 22, 2009 - 8:07pm — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: Darjeva Seriously, you could be a philosopher. And now you've inspired me to think about why everyone wants famous people's signatures. Is it because it's a more lasting memento than a hug, or a wink? More personal than mass-produced t-shirts with your picture? Keep up the good work.
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February 22, 2009 - 4:38pm — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: Shtachey Aaaw Hayley! You'll never imagine how much i love what you do. Your music, the emotions you give me when you sing. I never knew someone could just give me faith in everything with only songs. And now i know that THIS is great. And yes we care about having signatures of all of you. I like what you wrote and i'm glad fame didn't change you. Just keep on rocking guys *we love you like you are! ♥
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February 22, 2009 - 9:06am — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: glai wow that is so nice and very inspiring hayley! you really deserve everything because you worked so hard to be in the place where you are right now. you know i dont really know a lot of things about you but i know you are really a good person. i want to thank u including the rest of the paramore for inspiring me with your music. you guys really awesome!i just wish that maybe someday i could watch you guys performed live. Keep Rockin! Paramore is the best!
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February 20, 2009 - 9:14am — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: hit it vampqueen awww.... that's so profound Hayley... you're right... oui... oui... you are right... I am just glad that all that fame doesn't change you... You are one of the "very few" famous people who aren't haughty and who doesn't think that the world revolves around them... I salute you... for being REAL...
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February 7, 2009 - 12:47pm — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: Blanca Thank you.For being you, for write this. I think I'm trying to find how I really am and I was just wondering that this has changed my mind,also when I discovered your music I thought I finally had found my sound and how can I spend all the things that happen to me.Life is wonderfull in my opinion and I just can not bear how time goes so fast, I cannot bear that I'm not spending that time well. When I think about you guys I think about the life you're having, but for me, you're just people tryin' to live your dream. I understand what you say, even if I'm commenting this a few months later, but I swear I'll pray for you guys. PD:Sorry if ther are some grammar errors, I'm a Spanish girl, so...if you could COME TO SPAIN! Sorry I've written so much...
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January 31, 2009 - 12:56pm — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: Gjergji Yes you're right. We pass a lot of time thinking of the haw could have been.But we forget to live our life. In the end the most important think in the world is ourselfe. There is only one way to do something and that is to go and do it. It might look simple but it's not. The fear stops us and we end up living a life of dreams. We fear only one thing and that is failure. We fear it so much that we forget an important thing. We're always losing. Every minute and every second. One day we will die and nothing will remain of us. That means we can either do nothing or do everything. Thats our choise.
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January 25, 2009 - 1:42am — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: Jenna Thank you. For being you. You give me something to reflect on and an outlook on life I wish I had. I hope that I can be as happy with myself and the people around me as you are with yours. Thanks again from everyone in this little Podunk town I live in.
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January 18, 2009 - 11:51am — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: Kitty all i can say is You inspire me Hayley Williams <3
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January 18, 2009 - 12:17am — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: James!!!!! Just wantted to say that I printed some sentences and sticked them in my wall... This is so inspiring, "life has never been so wonder-ful" =D PD: Sorry if there's some mistakes, it's hard to find this kind of web-sites in Spain, and when I finally got here, I practically forgot all the words.. jaja
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January 2, 2009 - 6:09pm — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: francesca ur amazzing and soooo inspiring! : D keep on rockin!
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December 16, 2008 - 7:36am — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: Megan S. Awwwww Hayley. We may not know what it's like to be you or always know how your feeling or doing, but us true friends always have your back no matter what. We have all of your guys' backs. To me you guys are a group of amazingly talented people. I know your famous and all, but I wouldn't want to treat you as such only because you guys are more real and true to the fans than other famous people. You guys deserve to be treated like a normal person (like your everyday type of person that is) because you guys seem to be that type of people. P.S. Your music is amazing and I love you all. Keep up the great work. I love all of your song and I really wish you would have put decoy on riot because that is also an amazing song!!! Love, Megan
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November 23, 2008 - 1:38am — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: Darko hi hayley, I have been wondering if you guys will ever come to Portugal!! I mean Paramore has a lot of portuguese fans and I'm sure you would love it here... Anyway I've just watched Decode and I fell in love with the video!! the song is awesome too =) ..and you are cuter than ever!! =D <3 good luck for you guys***
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November 18, 2008 - 4:11pm — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: diorlenny hayley , ur great like really really great i literally hear most of your songs every morning on the way to school. lol ^_^ your my idol. you kno i wanted to do the same thing ur doing . but then i was like , wait a mintue i have no more songs to write because you wrote them all. hahaha but anyways, you rock. i really want to meet u in person, before i go to college in 2 years. lol * just a thought* love diorlenny
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November 17, 2008 - 1:15am — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: Kay oops. i guess my P.S. was alittle confusing. lol! here's what i meant to say: P.S. luv the Decode music video! luv ya all! :), Kay
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November 15, 2008 - 12:57am — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: Kay Hayley, I luv u and I completeley understand what ur saying (even if i am a few months late, lol). i discovered ur music last last year and i absolutely luv it! i luv music with meaning and urs is full to the brim! i want u to kno that to me ur all just people. like the rest of us. and i was estatic to hear that u believe n God!! that's the most inspiration u can give. well, i hope i'm not boring u. lol! ur amazing just being u (check out all ur fans that luv YOU!). ur awesome! just keep drivin' on!!! God Bless!!!!! we're always behind ya! PS :), luv the Kay Decode music video! luv ya all!!!!!!
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November 12, 2008 - 9:57pm — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: Jessica hayley that made me think about my life too....right now idk what is the best for me right now, ur words are awsome! :)
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November 9, 2008 - 2:08pm — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: someonefromsomewhere shoot it was actually 3 months late! or more..
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November 9, 2008 - 2:04pm — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: someonefromsomewhere it's like november 08, and i just knew that paramore owns a website. HAHA lame. so hayley if you're reading this comment, which is 2 months late, i dont really get what you mean. but sometimes, people living a perfect life arent thaat happy too you know. like me *well, not that perfect* hah! just to remind you that, we are all waiting for the release of your new album! we love your music, so just do your thing. eh eh, go to indonesia ( jakarta ) or singapore!! i'm gonna be in the front row ;p and i promise you i'll wear a spongebob tee. love ya rosehead
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November 5, 2008 - 4:32pm — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: L-Dizzle that last statement was brilliant.
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October 31, 2008 - 6:40pm — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: SWEETPEA ZAC IS MY FAVORITE hey hey you you i dont like your girl friend no way no way i think you need a new one that was for zac my friend haven came up with a remix to girlfriend if zac has a girlfriend BUT PRESONLY EVERY BODY IS MY FAVORITE so if i could date i would date zac but i;d have to get to know him a lot better than just on the internet. i want to talk about SIC hate it when they compare hayley to avril she ok i dont like her songs expet for a few but to me who would be the best paramore more than avril well the first time i saw paramore
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October 31, 2008 - 6:22pm — Paramore.net 1.0
Submitted By: SWEETPEA haley you remind me of my best friends madison an HAVEN the look like you act like you well uncosully and i mean what i sad shes on here but im not shure who she is ill have to call her but youll see her talling about you an zac alot yous guys are her favorite shes crazy in LOVE with zac shes has him in her locker, room , bider,she even mad a shirt of him i really dont know what to say some times but zac is SEXI

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